My heart can't take it

Okay so now it's the 28th of January, and the adoption agency called me 2 days ago and told me that they should have her info by the end of this week. Oh Boy!!!! My heart is beating fast, my eyes are getting teary every so often, I'm going nutty people.... To Think that very soon Dante and I will be able to see pictures of our daughter....we feel so lucky, so happy, the feeling is out of this world!!!!! To think that right now in China there is a little Pagano......You know for so long I felt sorry for myself, not being able to give birth to another child was very difficult for us, we LOVE children, Having loss 3 babies , I have to say that was the hardest thing Dante and I had ever gone through, and then being told that I could never get pregnant again, well that just about killed me....But I am a believer that my little Angels , my little babies , have guided Dante and I to our Daughter....My Beautiful babies will forever have a place in my heart.....They have played a very important role in my life.....for they have brought me to you My Lianna Rose, now I understand, that some may not understand this... and thats okay, we all have our own beliefs...I just choose to believe that everything good or bad happens for a reason, and even though it sometimes does not make sense, in time it will, Lianna is very special to us....we will never take our children for granted, for we know what a gift they truly are....Some say Lianna is a very lucky little girl, but Dante and I are truly the lucky ones....to have the honor , the privilege to raise this angel, what an amazing gift.......we are so greatful....

Carmen Pagano
AKA ( one lucky lady)

A letter to My Daughter

Its been 23 months since your father and I began our journey to you our precious daughter....I am so hoping that we will receive a picture of you by this November, and maybe be able to have you home with all of us by February. How can I express to you how much I Love You....even though I have never seen you, even though I have never held you, even though I was not the one to birth you, I love you as my child. For You Lianna have grown in my heart, for you Lianna have grown in my soul, for you Lianna are my daughter. The love I have for you is no less and never will be less than the Love I have for your two brothers.... I have carried you in my heart for the last 23 months....and I will carry you in my heart for the rest of my life. I dream of you, I think of you everyday that has gone by....you are always in my thoughts. And even though, you are not physicaly here, I consider myself to have 3 children....My hope for you, is for you to know and always know that you are loved, you are wanted, and that you my daughter have made my life complete...I just hope that I will be able to give you all that you deserve in life.

Your Mother

Carmen Pagano